Crossing under the Golden Gate, a solo mariner's adventure at the Lion's Gate Portal Moon in July 2021

July 20th, 2021 Blog

Hello my friends, I hope you are doing well. I apologize with all my heart if anyone needed harp therapy recently and my harp and I were not there. I will be back to sharing music on the street this weekend. I have been in New Mexico and also docked at the marina in Vallejo, I've been growing and learning and healing from shatter and a toll that caught up with me playing solo on the street, fear of being out in the world, strange fears of being in any form, however the tides are changing and my boat and I arrived safe at home a few days ago in my local Santa Cruz harbor, near my favorite anchorage, and I'll be getting back to musical work. My dream came true, making the journey here. Sometimes I need to do some wild s**t to make the light return in my eyes, so I crossed under the golden gate bridge and 2 miles beyond on my own after 5 hours of travel, howl of hail poseidon, I planned to reach Pillar Point that evening but found the waters to be too rough on the channel, so I pulled into Schoonmaker Marina in Sausalito, where the most wonderful group of artists and fishermen helped me to find the right person to complete the rest journey with me, a fisherman who has worked in the Bering Sea, the Gulf of the Farallones and Monterey Bay all his life. I am very grateful to those souls, and to my family, I found my heart and trust lighthouse again and I prayed as we traveled on the sea at night and the waves were big and rolley that all of the music I have made in life to honor the gods would help my Apollo boat and I to arrive safely home. The swells upon my boat that night were the sound of the loudest heartbeat, I'll never forget it, I love wild adventures in life, I held to my vision of being here and I can barely believe its here now. I missed my friends. I am so looking forward to sharing music with you all again, I still need to share my recent song, I keep thinking about that, I want to do that soon, I have a lot of adventure time to put into a video for that song. Here are a few pictures of jewelry comissions I completed this last month, if you would like a personal power talisman, just let me know, its one of my favorite things to create. There is a picture I took just before I crossed under the golden gate bridge the first time and initiated myself, I am proud of the work done, I am proud of my boat, and my life and heart has been changed by a community of beautiful hearts coming together to assist me. One thing I have learned, being raised in religion growing up, and what I released when I left, that there are no intermediaries between us and the divine. No one initiates me but myself and life, no priest or priestess or shaman, I felt great forces of divinity working this weekend, and the awesome power of the sea, it made me weep, the one other time I also felt this way was when I birthed my twins who are 9 without any painkillers, I had to surrender to these forces of nature, to the god forces, and be in the space of this ultimate soul shattering trust. Well, I just wanted to share these few things today and I'm looking forward to sharing music again soon, I remember after another period of feeling completely detatched from any identity form that I am on a musician path in this life and it is my honour and duty and great love. I'd like to quit being too shy or something to share online my previous album recordings, because I do love them and I am proud of them and feel they belong in the world too. I want to catalyze with greater wisdom a new chapter in my musical life with sunlight and by the light of our nearly full moon. Thank you so much for reading, dear souls. Love, Sabine