Surrealist Street Photography By Richard Randolph Rahders

Dear Cosmic Community💜 This heart has been breaking so intensely this past week today I feel finally able to articulate and all I can do is listen to all of the innumerable voices and perspectives in my human family and see the actualizations around the country of such valid pain and valid pent up hot burning rage volcanic eruptions of what has been building for so long, and incomparable sadness, and generational anguish, I am hearing and feeling all around me from brothers and sisters, and inside. The lives of my sisters and brothers of color MATTER. Absolutely. Tremendously. You are beautiful, you are exquisite, you matter. You do not deserve or should experience any disrespect and discrimination, ever!!! These things have to fucking change, they really have too immediately. Black Lives Matter. This stops now, it is our responsibility. Here we are together facing this destruction and creation. I feel clarity today instead of intense anxiety and meltdown despair for days. Head still in my hands and I'm reaching out for you. Going for a jog today I tried to imagine again how it would feel to be hunted and shot, or surrounded and murdered over a $20 bill, just because of the shade of my skin, such an impermanent body suit. To even walk around with that kind of fear. I'm skittish being a lady on my own sometimes yet I feel safe walking and jogging through my fucking neighborhood during the DAY. Many don't. With intense sadness I know that it is true, it is reality for so many, for friends and neighbors, it is not right. Why the fuck is it that governing principals have become so corrupted that functioning life itself revolves around capital and the pursuit of it is silently agreed upon to be more of value than all life??!!! Mr. Floyd was a black father murdered by a white man in a position of supposed service, who could have made a different choice without that awful look on his face but he didn't and it was over a 20 dollar bill, this particular murder. How tragically symbolic. A match that lit a bubbling fuse that's been in the fabric of our societies for so long. Economic and environmental racism and layers of social racism and soul crushing wealth disparity and the events all of it creates subtly and not so subtly daily need to be worked consciously into total elimination. Justice system needs total reform. Its good to fucking scream and feel it and give a voice to the rage in us all. I feel heart ripped up by these experiences of others. Feels of the death happening of an old world paradigm. It is a dark realization to have over and over that the tactics of survival my black friends and neighbors have to use daily, it's on a whole other level than my own, and it needs to stop being this way. I understand that I will never understand. Every black person deserves respect and their dignity to be honoured. Its a humbling realization over and over how much damage fear can cause. It is our responsibility to change this. These killings must stop. This wealth polarization that greedy capitalists have created and this for profit healthcare system is not functioning for the people and needs to be replaced. It is killing our souls and the planet and has so much responsibility in our country's foundation in racism, and I truly hope it can be done peacefully, oh by the Great Goddess. It is destroying people and life on this planet with its insatiable greed and need to exploit for material gain. People battling for money and resources for a fucking false fake ass sense of security, to keep the wheels greased on a system that's breaking people to the point where violent revolution is the last resort. I see that work and trade and the spirit of commerce are a part of society and perhaps are natural human expressions but its too much pressure now on the planet and the people that do the most work like grow the food are supported the least and people that throw oblong pieces of blown up pigskin around in tight uniforms or are in the cult of celebrity are supported like absolute kings, and not even teachers are paid well. We are obviously not all the same individually in personality and culturally (fortunately, that'd be so boring) but we are one human community and are connected on these soul levels and in my opinion I think that the terrible uneasiness writhing like a dying snake throughout the planet we have been feeling for so long is due to the fact that so many people are suffering silently on the planet to varying degrees in a grinding machine of modern serfdom and systemic racism and never ending colonialism and destruction of sacred lands. But now 2020 events have the dynamic changing suddenly more acutely and abruptly and the anger which indicates our boundaries is erupting after this period of quarantine. Inevitable eruptions for change but what tragic circumstances as a precursor. Do we have it in us to reconstruct things so that people of color don't have to live in fear in these horrible ways and the nervous systems of people are under less stress? Be it so, in willingness to work with you. Not corrupted is the soulful poetic beauty and strength and natural optimism and community in people, even in the face of soul destruction genocide or constant war that colonialism and out of control capitalism have created. In full fucking support of traumatized people that have been blatantly abused and killed and more insidiously subtly fucked with for so long getting this message of change or else across EXACTLY the way it seeds to be sent for action to be taken. I feel like there is so much loneliness around the world.😢 I don't wish for violence or violent revolution anywhere. I've been violent in the past to myself and others and have had violence done to me repeatedly and its not the way of responsible responsiveness, it's simply reactivity, it's so destructive and I don't think it's a truly effective way to create real change if it's a consistent vibration present but what options really are left here in this particular situational tipping point? I was born into a military service and police affiliated family. I see the humankind in family members wanting to serve and make a living and I respect that. I also see the police state of control and brutality and a corrupt justice system that has got to be eliminated. Because there is such obvious murderous racism infused disrespect by the police. The military and police seem quite well equipped to react violently with protesters yet there were not enough masks or ventilators or supplies circulating through hospitals? Doesn't make sense. Fucked. It is about power and control when it comes to the mindset of enforcers of the law.💜Santa Cruz has been peaceful💜
The mindset of power and control over people is just not a functioning perspective. The brutal bloodstained colonialist past of this country needs to be written about and spoken of truthfully. But that means we need to behave better and more consciously with each other so that we won't need police and military!!! I KNOW we are all learning to get along better everyday in a world where beauty and love and potential and community lie in the melting of cultures. I'm working on this too. Mutual respect💜 As a mom finding the words to explain racism to my children has felt like searching for words to describe complete madness but these tough conversations need to be had in all circles and consistently often. Every human being I have ever been in contact with is a teacher. Thank you for teaching me about what I can do to further develop socially to be of better service in a world in need of so much change. What are my own personal fear laced mindset patterns stemmed from trauma around forging deeper working alliances with other humans to more effectively create necessary changes? This is Saturn in Aquarius time and the last time Saturn was in Aquarius it was a social climate that exposed a victim of extreme police brutality, Rodney King, and the subsequent rioting, and the last time Pluto was in Capricorn was the American Revolution. What is outdated WILL fall and die out. That is how the symbolism of this transit actualizes in an evolutionary sense within the world, and inside our own souls. Messy and heartbreaking empowering necessary work. We destroy what isn't working and we build together. I want to hear all my friends and family speak their valid and needed opinions. I want to listen and hear what you are saying. I deeply want this. I want to share all the music with you. Feels like the human world has never been under more stress and unsustainabilty in all its daily practices than right now. I feel the uprisings are going to create a platform for significant change and though the looting and destruction of small businesses is obviously not helpful and marks a stain on the peaceful protests especially so for the people affected by the looting that are just trying to survive like you and I, the fact that all these corporations were given massive financial relief during the covid quarantine and American businesses were fucking forced to close and people losing their jobs including myself and so many I hear and see are now in financial crisis and have not been adequately assisted and money is obviously the God Of Worship in all this, WELL a lot of people are going to react to that in anger and why wouldn't they. I want to listen more fully to what you have to say and I'm totally here if you need someone. Last year I was hoping one night that the rare astrological transits and alignments of 2020 would just really not manifest so explicitly, like economic depression and plague, but yet it has and it must be so that we can build new structures together. I pray for our world in optimism, it will be a highly pressurized few years, we can get it together💜 Three volatile eclipses coming up fast, all stirring up anger and suppressed emotion and creating chaos and eruptions in our hearts and discord in public discourse and the deep valid need to express subjective truths. There is a needlepoint focus on deeper moral principals in the subconscious unearthing. Life philosophies and social higher philosophies vs. daily happenings, daily coping mechanisms, the blending of the two, exploring the reality of that polarity and bridging the gaps. The south node of the moon moving into Sagittarius was going to stir it up for sure, roots needing to be exposed and pulled out, which is social revolution.

I am totally on your side, fuck anyone that tries to hurt you.
Here begins a series of daily therapeutic harp live streams downtown for the beautiful people I see everywhere, and hopefully you will be soothed and strengthened by it, I'll do these daily for as long as I can until my next sensory meltdown, truthfully. I understand a lot of music people are not expressing themselves musically today in solidarity with Blackout Tuesday and I mean no disrespect to that by playing in the street today but I personally feel like this is not the time to shut down music for the people. My harp journey has been heavily influenced by the great transcendental jazz harpists and women of beautiful color Alice Coltrane and the great Dorothy Ashby, I honor them today and always by trying my best to bring a little light into the world with music therapy. With love and support and cries from my empathic connection to you, if you suffer, I do too, we all do. This ends here. I understand that I will never understand.This is my perspective, I had to write it out, if you don't like it, please at least respect it, I respect yours and I love you 💜 Sending you all so many hugs💜🙏💜 Tuesday, June 2nd, 2020